Pandemic: Life Impacts Now

More concern, more deliberation, more mindfulness probably sums it up pretty well. I woke up in the wee hours of Saturday morning feeling unsettled. Actually, I’ve been waking [up] at about 3 am for several days now. Clearly, worry is high right now all over the place. It’s not just about one topic, either, and that’s part of what’s tough. I counted about 10 categories of concerns there in the dark. Health of kids, health of ALL of my people: 90-year-old mom, older siblings, my guy, friends, etc., getting things done, budgeting, planning ahead, my daughter’s braces situation which rightfully changes now, which are the gnarly doorknobs and any handle really that need extra cleaning attention(?), is laundry temperature important right now for killing germs(?), what will schooling look like now(?), my online teaching plan, plus much more serious concerns than those even — in other words,...

Pandemic: Musical Distancing

The band I’m in of a bunch of GenX friends is creatively experimenting with a way to play music while socially distancing during the pandemic. We are all part of a stay at home order by our governor and it sparked a new way to come together. One of our members is a huge David Bowie fan and this song, Five Years, is our first effort to play separately together each in our own homes. We had great fun making this happen. It’s a reminder that unexpected snafus can turn into happy accidents and deliberate new creative directions. We might even make a habit of...

Stay At Home Birthday

My son’s 11th birthday party was last night; during the stay at home order by our governor in the midst of the COVID-19 pandemic. At 11, he dreams of outings for his birthday with lots of friends. The stay at home kind of birthday is an adjustment. It was the way it is this year. I have a few gifts for him, he got a couple very hoped for gift cards, and cash. His 15-year-old sister stole the show, though, with her coupons for time and experiences for her brother to use with her when he wants time with her. It’s a very big deal, because at their ages his sister isn’t always game for his requests on his schedule. This will change that some and I’m proud of her to bringing it in this way. All in all? She gave him more than six hours of time for activities. Some are specific such as jumping on the trampoline and playing catch with a football to laser tag or anything...

Pandemic: Future Focus

I’m only weeks into a career transition phase of my life. As I seek a new position with a stable, vibrant company, this pandemic is catapulting us into a different time that feels even less stable than ever in my memory. We’ll likely make cultural and historical references in terms of ‘before the COVID-19 pandemic’ or ‘after the COVID-19 pandemic’ now. I have a journalistic, digital media background and, as an observant writer, remember vividly what was happening in the world around me when my dad died, August 3rd, 2001. It was only a few weeks before 9/11. All sorts of people from national leaders and media personalities to neighbors down the street began referring to life as ‘before 9/11’ and ‘after 9/11‘ when referencing past influence on the present. Anything ’before 9/11’ seemed much farther behind us and less relevant than what was referenced as ’after 9/11’ because the world was...

Pandemic: Time At Home

This has been an unusual opportunity for an unexpected helpful slow down of sorts to focus on what matters – the health and well-being of human beings. This shift has me spending more direct time with my kids since school is cancelled for the time being and we’re waiting for next steps. I’ve started on some home organization projects I’ve been wanting to get done (for too long). One involves my 15-year-old daughter sitting with me to go through storage totes of her old stuff from when she was four and five. I didn’t expect it to be fun, but it was a hoot. We laughed so much pulling out various funny memories and useless junk from the boxes. There were things I assumed she’d remember from childhood she had no clue about and there were things she remembered that stunned me. Unexpected bonding opportunity. Plus, it was satisfying to have emptied two boxes tonight after supper...

Decent Person Indicator

Sincerity is this kind of beacon of light to me. It’s about being sensitive, calm, thoughtful, and peaceful. That displays differently in different people. It’s not about being a meek person at all. You can be expressive, passionate, and/or cerebral, to name a few. A mature adult still able to be vulnerable enough to show sensitivity after many years of life grabbing a hold of them (as it does virtually everyone) attempting to leave them in a state of numbness and emotional despair – to me is a wonder. It takes real courage not to harden into stone through life. Calm requires a willingness to fight the ferocious visual and auditory stimulation shoved at us nearly constantly few can entirely escape. One simple example: TVs at gas pumps? Really? Mindfulness and a commitment to staying present and finding center again when tossed off is what this person displays…and it’s a precious...

My Birthday Month

As my birthday quietly melts into a new day …(despite the fact I continue to lobby for the birthday week)… I want to say thank you for such kind birthday wishes – impactful day and an unusual milestone bday for sure. It’s been a day filled with extremes – warmth, possibility, travel, adventure, patience, professional accomplishment, love, friendship, sadness, joy, creativity, fear, frustration, connection … as if much of what a person can experience was wrapped up in a moment called today. It was highly unusual and I’m marveling at the big picture of it. I’m a bit late getting home tonight from a DC area conference this week that was excellent all around – content and people – loved it -special experience. The reason? Weather delays as will happen, but then a family had trouble on one flight. A mom and her four kids (seemingly teenage) were...

A Fav Farmers Market On Earth

Occasionally I’ll fall in love with a place or experience…and when that happens – it takes hold of me deeply. Think of it as something you can’t stop thinking about – can’t shake it off. The Santa Fe Farmers Market is just that kind of experience. I think it’s my very favorite of all I’ve been to – more than 50 farmers markets in a couple years time. Lavender blue corn meal donuts, pretty vegan spring rolls, four different musical experiences from a marimba band to a Latin acoustic trio. Easy parking, gorgeously rugged industrial setting, vast variety, musicians at all corners, REI, AND an entire literal creative artist market broadens out the entire Saturday morning event. We also went on Tuesday morning and while it was still pleasant – it wasn’t anything compared to Saturday’s. Tuesdays is more of a tease or...