I get it. It’s a question that just makes sense. I can talk about all this kindness and decency stuff and make it all sound easy, but what have I really gone through?
Instead of sharing my ‘qualifications’ based on a textured background of many deeply moving and painful experiences in one exhaustive list in one post, I’ll sprinkle some through future blog posts. Allow me to point out something profoundly interesting I’ve experienced.
Some people run away when they learn about who you are in what you’ve experienced while others come closer. It’s not about you and your value. It’s about their sense of self and inner strength.
It’s ok. Let them go. They are doing you a favor. They aren’t your people from this point forward. Others who are your people will make themselves known in time if you make space for them.
Yes, it does smart a little…well, maybe a lot – depending… But, it’s all information…the power is in how you apply that knowledge to your own experience.
Use it to learn.
Do I hate anyone or anything after the tough stuff I’ve walked through? No. It’s not how I’m made.
My charge in life is to attempt to understand, so I can learn.
Is that messy and hard and confusing and strange and am I left hanging with no answers sometimes? You betcha.
But, I root for others and their happiness, as much as for my own even when it hurts.
Something I understand about myself with utter certainty is I’m not here to wow those around me. I’m not here to pretend to those around me.
I’m here to learn for some purpose I’m not even aware of, and I do know this. It can’t involve destroying others, because it’s not the spirit in which I was made or the spirit in which I’ve made, created, or built anything of value in my life. Anger can propel us, but in my case – that’s where it ends – love, passion, and idealism take over from there and it’s been an awesome journey with all of it’s trials and triumphs.
The quest for what is real is incredibly uncomfortable for a lot of people who want to use your seeming cracks against you.
Just smile bigger and know your honesty makes you teflon.
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent, so own who you are.
No one has power over you.
When the lows are low – the highs are out of sight.